I'm up! It's 8:23 AM and I am awake. Fully awake, not groggy at all. What a fantastic feeling! My sleep pattern has been so messed up lately. I would stay up all night, go to bed and sleep for 2 nights, or I would take an advil PM and sleep all the next day, as well... Well, last night I was sleepy, but not exhausted. I went to bed at a normal time, like 12am or so. I couldn't sleep. I laid awake for hours, I tossed and turned, I was panicky and uncomfortable, but I didn't get up. Ryan woke me up this morning and I was able to get up. Now I'm drinking coffee and watching the CBS Morning Show.

I've been waking up so late that I haven't really been eating during the day. I know from the Weight Watchers standpoint, I'm probably taking in less calories/points and therefore most likely losing weight (I didn't check this week). I have lost weight this way before. In fact, I used to practically starve myself. I guess I never went into starvation mode because I always exercised, as well. Then, there were times where I didn't pay any attention to my weight and started working out consistantly. Of course the latter was much more condusive to weight loss. My biggest problem now is procrastination. I'll start working out tomorrow. Now, I'm waiting for Ryan to start going with me. He's procrastinating, as well. I can't blame him. I've had this gym membership that has pretty much gone unused for the past year+. It's depressing. Here, I know that working out will do so many things. There really are no negatives... maybe I'll be a little achey, but the improvements in my life will be plenty. Yet, I can't seem to make it to the gym. The motivation just isn't there. I know I'm not alone in this... The US wouldn't be having so many problems with obesity if everyone could get their butts to the gym. However, there are tons of people who get the motivation to work out and eat healthier. What do they have that I don't? I see these people on People magazine who've lost half their size. I know I've talked about this before. It's frustrating! I know so many people look at people who are overweight and think, "Well, I can do it, why can't you? Why can't you get your fat ass to the gym?" Honestly, I don't know. I don't know how I got here. What I do know is this isn't the weight I want to be for the rest of my life. I'm not comfortable. I have all of the tools at my fingertips, now where do I find the motivation to start to use them?

Interesting news... Apparently, the LIRR (Long Island Rail Road) recieved bail out money and is going to stop at Grand Central by 2013. Right now, they just stop on the West Side (Penn Station). We currently have the Woodside station near us here in Queens. It's pretty much within walking distance (without a lot of bags etc), but I think there are probably more times available from Manhattan. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure how it works. What I do know is I love Grand Central and we only have to take one train to get there. To get to Penn Station, we would have to transfer at Times Square which is kind of a pain. Who knows where we'll be in 2013.

I think they should let the main guy from The Doctors wear something other than scrubs. He's a good looking guy, but it's not a flattering outfit. Do they think it does something for the show?Sorry, I'm random... and not very good with the transitions.